These days I fear I have nothing to say.
It’s not like I don’t have thoughts. It’s just that they’re so perfectly jumbled up in my head that I couldn’t even tell you what I’m thinking. I have no clear thoughts. I have no words. I just feel. And that, a little too intensely. I’m good at acting – if you’ve seen me recently, I seem fine. Same old inappropriate humor, same old seemingly strong facade. Maybe you’ve noticed the quiet sadness? Maybe I’m too good at acting to let you see that.
I guess I owe the faithful 7 readers who keep checking daily a reason for my long leave of absence. I didn’t mean to stay away this long. I just can’t think of anything worth saying.
I’m sleep deprived, anxious, and restless. It’s not something that won’t pass, I’m sure. But right now, I have no words, just incoherent emotions. That’s all.